Three young men bent on stealing
a Mercedes-Benz killed a federal judge's father on April 19, 1994, in Dallas.
Before brothers Donald Coleman, 19, and Cedric Coleman, 21, were sentenced
last January by Senior U.S. District Judge William Steger of Tyler for carjacking,
possession of a firearm and possession of a short-barreled shotgun, the
victim's son, Judge Michael Luttig of the 4th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals,
stood to tell the court how terribly their crime had hurt him and his family.
The Coleman brothers and Napoleon Beazley were in a red Ford Probe the night
they followed John and Bobbie Luttig home and Beazley and Donald Coleman
jumped from their own car armed with a pistol and a sawed-off shotgun. According
to the Tyler Morning Telegraph's accounts of the trial, John Luttig was
shot in the head as he stepped out of his car; his wife survived by feigning
death and rolling under the car. The assailants backed the car out of the
garage over her and abandoned it a few blocks away. The three men were arrested
two months later. (Beazley, now 18, was a minor at the time of the crime
and was not named in the federal indictment.) Judge Luttig asked for the
maximum, a life sentence. But after his emotional statement to the court,
Steger said he could not depart from the sentencing guidelines. Donald Coleman
got 43 years, nine months in prison. Cedric Coleman got 40 years, five months.
They and Beazley face capital murder and aggravated robbery charges in state
court.
May it please the Court. It is one of life's ironies that I appear before
the Court for the reason that I do. But I do so to represent my dad -- who
is not here -- and his wife, and daughters. His family, my family. More
than anything else, I do this to honor him, because if the roles were reversed,
he would be standing here today. Of this I am certain. I also owe this to
the other victims of violent crime who either stand silently by, or who
speak and are not heard. I owe it to the public. I owe it, as well, to Donald
and Cedric Coleman, who may yet not understand the magnitude of the losses
they inflicted on the night of April 19.
Words seem trite in describing what follows when your husband is murdered
in your presence, when your father is stripped from your life. The horror,
the agony, the emptiness, the despair, the chaos, the confusion, the sense
-- perhaps temporary, but perhaps not -- that one's life no longer has any
purpose, the doubt, the hopelessness. There are no words that can possibly
describe it, and all it entails. But being the victim of a violent crime
such as this is at least these things. Exactly these things in my family's
case; the equivalent of these things in the countless other cases.
While it is happening and in the seconds and the minutes thereafter.
. .
... it's the sheer horror of half-clothed people with guns storming up your
driveway toward you in the dark of night, when you are totally defenseless.
... it's what must be the terrifying realization that you are first about
to be, and then actually being, murdered.
... it's perhaps seeing in your last moment what in your mind you know was
the murder of your wife.
... it's crawling on the floor of your own garage in the grease and filth,
pretending you're dead, so that you won't be shot through the head by the
person who just murdered your husband.
... it's realizing your husband has been gunned down in your driveway on
your return from the final class you needed to complete your education --
an education that had been the goal of both of you since the day you were
married.
... it's knowing that the reason that your husband was with you -- indeed,
the reason that you were in the car that night at all -- is that his Christmas
gift to you the previous year was the promise that you could take the class
and that he would take you to and from, so that nothing would happen to
you.
... it's mercilessly punishing yourself over whether you could have done
something, anything at all, to have stopped the killing.
Moments later, across a continent...
... it's being frightened out of your mind in the middle of the night by
a frantic banging on your door -- calling the police, then canceling the
call -- and then answering the door. Your body goes limp as you see one
of your best friends standing in the doorway. No words need even be spoken.
For you know that the worst in life has happened. Then, he tells you: "Your
mom just called. Father was murdered in the driveway of your home."
... it's realizing that, at that very moment, the man you have worshipped
all your life is lying on his back in your driveway with two bullets through
his head.
Across the globe. . .
... it's your husband taking the emergency international call, pulling down
the receiver, fumbling for the words, as he starts to deliver the news.
"This is the hardest thing I will ever have to tell you," he begins.
Then, it is the calls home, or at least to what used to be home, first one,
then the other. In eerie, stunned calmness, you hear your mother utter the
feared confirmation:
"Yes, your dad was just murdered. You better come home." Now you
believe.
Within hours. . .
... it's arriving home to television cameras in your front yard, to see
your house cordoned off by police lines; police conducting ballistics and
forensics tests, and studying the place in the driveway where your father
had finally fallen dead -- all as if it were a set from a television production.
... it's going down to the store where your dad had always shopped for clothes,
to buy a shirt, a tie that will match his suit, and a package of three sets
of underwear (you can only buy them in sets of three) so your dad will look
nice when he is buried.
... it's being called by the funeral home and told that it recommends that
the casket be closed and that perhaps your mom, sister, and wife should
not see the body -- and you know why, without even asking.
... it's walking into the viewing room at the funeral home and having your
sister cry out that that just can't be him, it just can't be.
In the days that follow . . .
... it's living in a hotel in your own hometown, blocks away from where
you have lived your whole life, because you just can't bear to go back.
... it's packing up the family home, item by item, memory by memory, as
if all of the lives that were there only hours before are no more.
... it's reading the letters from you, your sister, and your wife, that
your dad secreted away in his most private places, unbeknownst to you, realizing
that the ones he invariably saved were the ones that just said "thanks"
or "I love you." And really understanding for the first time that
that truly was all that he ever needed to hear or to receive in return,
just as he always told you.
... it's carefully folding each or your husband's shirts, as you have always
done, so that they will be neat when they are given away.
... it's watching your mother do this, in your own mind begging her to stop.
... it's cleaning out your dad's sock drawer, his underwear drawer, his
ties.
... it's packing up your dad's office for him, from the family picture to
the last pen and pencil.
... it's reading the brochures in his top drawer about the fishing trip
you and he were to take in two months -- the trip that your mother had asked
you to go on because it meant so much to your dad.
In the weeks thereafter. . .
... it's living in absolute terror, not knowing who had murdered your husband
and tried to murder you, but realizing that often such people come back
to complete the deed, and wondering if they would return this time.
... it's furiously writing down the license number of every Ford Probe for
no reason other than it was a Ford Probe, hoping that through serendipity,
it might be, and sometimes fearing, that that is exactly what might happen.
... it's never spending another night in your own home because the pain
is too great and the memories too fresh.
... it's all day every day, and all night, racking your brain to the point
of literal exhaustion over who possibly could have done this. It's questioningly
looking in the corners of every relationship, to the point that, at times,
you are almost ashamed of yourself. Yet you have no choice but to continue,
because, as they say, it could be anyone.
... it's thinking the unthinkable, that perhaps the act was in retaliation
for something you had done in your job. You ask yourself, "If it was,
should I just walk away?"
... it's watching the re-enactment of your dad's, your husband's murder
on television, day and night, and every time you pick up the newspaper.
... it's reading the "wanted" poster for the people who murdered
him, while checking out at the grocery store.
... it's telling your family night after night that it will be all right,
when you don't believe it yourself.
Then they are finally found, and. . .
... it's collapsing on the kitchen floor when you are told -- not from relief,
but from the ultimate despair in learning that your husband was indeed killed
for nothing but a car, and in an act so random as to defy comprehension.
... it's watching your mother collapse on the floor when she hears this
news and knowing that she will not just have to relive the fateful night
in her own mind, now she will have to relive it in public courtrooms, over
and over again, for months on end.
In the months that follow. . .
... it's putting the family home up for sale and being told that everyone
thinks it is beautiful, but they just don't think they could live there,
because a murder took place in the driveway.
... it's the humiliation of being told by the credit card companies, after
they closed your husband's accounts because of his death, that they are
unable to extend you credit because you are not currently employed.
... it's receiving an anonymous call that begins, "I just learned of
the brutal carjacking and murder of your father," and that ends by
saying. "I only wish your mother had been raped and murdered, too."
... it's the crushing anxiety of awaiting the trauma and uncertainties of
public trials.
The day arrives, and. . .
... it's listening, for the first time, to the tape of your mother's 911
call to report that her husband, your father, had been murdered. Hearing
the terror in her voice. Catching yourself before you pass out from the
shock of knowing that, through that tape, you are present at the very moment
it all happened.
... it's hearing the autopsy report on how the bullets entered your father's
skull, penetrated and exited his brain, and went through his shoulder and
arm.
... it's listening to testimony as to how long he might have been conscious,
and thus aware of what was happening -- not just to him but to the woman
that he had always said he would give his life for.
... it's looking at the photographs of your dad lying in the driveway in
a pool of blood, as they are projected on a large screen before your friends
and family, and before what might as well be the whole world.
... it's having to ask your son what the expression was on your husband's
face.
... it's listening to a confession in which the person says that he just
thought your dad was "playing possum."
... it's listening to your own mother, a lady of ultimate grace, testify
publicly as to how she crawled under the car, in the grease and the filth,
to avoid being murdered.
... it's hearing her say that the only thing she could think of was what
it was going to be like to be shot through the back of the head.
... it's watching her face as she relives that night, time and again.
As the trauma of the trial subsides. . .
... it's getting down on your hands and knees and straightening your dad's
new grave marker and packing the fresh dirt around it, so that it will be
perfect, as he always insisted that things be for you.
... it's sitting across from each other at Thanksgiving dinner, each knowing
that there is but one thing on the other's mind, yet pretending otherwise
for their sake.
... it's telling your wife that the meat was great, when you could barely
keep it down and hardly wait to finish.
... it's trying to pick out a Christmas gift for your mother that your dad
would have picked out for her.
... it's sitting beside your father's grave into the night in 30-degree
weather, so that he won't be alone on the first Christmas.
... it's putting up, by yourself, the basketball goal that you got last
Christmas so that you and your dad could relive memories as you passed the
years together.
... it's finishing by yourself all of the projects that you have not an
idea how to do, and that your dad had said, "Save for the summer and
we'll do them together. I'll show you how."
... it's hearing your 2-year-old daughter ask for "Pawpaw" and
seeing your wife choke back the tears and tell her, "He's gone now,
he's in heaven."
... it's having the clothes your dad was most proud of altered, so you can
wear them in his honor.
... it's wondering whether your wearing the clothes will be too painful
for your mother.
In the larger sense. . .
... it's shaking every time you drive into a darkened driveway.
... it's feeling your body get rigid every time that you drive into a garage.
... it's being nervous every time you walk to your car, even in the open
daylight.
... it's being scared to answer any phone call or any knock at the door
at night (or, for that matter, during the day) because another messenger
may be calling.
Finally, it's the long-term effects. .
. ... it's the inexplicable sense of embarrassment when you tell someone
that your husband or your father was murdered -- almost a sense of guilt
over injecting ugliness into their lives.
... it's going out to dinner alone, knowing that you will be going out alone
the rest of your life.
... it's that feeling -- wrong, but inevitable -- that you will always be
the fifth wheel.
... it's living the rest of your life with the fact that your husband, your
father, suffered one of the most horrifying deaths possible.
... it's never knowing, yet fearing that you know all too well, what those
final moments must have been like.
... it's constantly visualizing yourself in his place that night, moment
by excruciating moment.
... it's realizing that you will never even get the chance to repay your
dad for making your dreams come true.
... it's living with the uncomfortable irony that he lived just long enough
to see to it that your dreams came true, but that his never will.
... it's knowing you never had, and will never have, that one last time
to say thanks for giving me, first, life itself, and then, all that it holds.
And. . .
... it's knowing that this is only the beginning and the worst is yet to
come.
... The haunting images.
... The emptiness.
... The loneliness.
... The directionlessness.
... The sickening sense that it all ended some time ago, and that you are
but biding time.
Of course, for my mother, my sister, my wife and I, the sun will come up
again, but it will never come up again for the real victim of this crime.
Not only will he never see what he worked a lifetime for, and was finally
within reach of obtaining. That would be tragedy enough. But, even worse,
he died knowing that the only thing that ever could have ruined his life
had come to pass -- that his wife and his family might have to suffer the
kind of pain that is now ours -- and he was helpless to prevent it even
as he saw its inevitability. We live by law in this county so that, ideally,
no one will ever have to know what it is like to be a victim of such violent
crime. If I had any wish, any wish in the world, it would be that no one
ever again would have to go through what my mother and my father experienced
on the night of April 19, what my family has endured since and must carry
with us the rest of our lives. Crimes such as that committed against my
family are intolerable in any society that calls itself not only free, but
civilized. The law recognizes as much, and it provides for punishment that
will ensure at least that others will not suffer again at the same hands,
even if it does not prevent recurrence at the hands of others. On behalf
of my dad, and on behalf of my mother and family, I respectfully request
that these who committed this brutal crime receive the full punishment that
the law provides. Three people were needed to complete this crime. Each
of the three was as instrumental to its success as the other. There were
no passive bystanders among the gang that executed my dad. Thank you, Your
Honor.
Reprinted with permission from Judge Michael Luttig.
Thanks to a concerned citizen, Howard LaMont, for bringing this to our attention.
From the President(reprinted from the Washington Accountant)

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